The breathless hush of evening

I never set resolutions. I say they're stupid, vapid, meaningless, unsportsmanlike and unchristian. The thing is, I only know about what half of those words really mean. See, I don't set resolutions because I know I can never keep up with ultimatums I give myself. Shit, I can't even follow the daily list of things I need to get done; how can I stick with a goal for a year? This year is going to be different. Instead of making excuses on why I don't have new year's resolutions, I'm going to tell the truth instead. Nope, still no resolutions.

Life in Kentucky is like this: wake up at 1 or 2PM, eat something, call various psychiatrists to try to get tested for adult ADD and call various psychiatric hospitals to find a summer job/internship. Funny thing is I've called some numbers twice asking about different things. It's... kind of awkward. But I've found a potential job for the summer as well as a place to get tested. However, I'm still trying to find a psychologist/psychiatrist who can do the full 2 hour neurological testing for ADD just so I can be certain I have and am not just a lazy fuck. It's Lexington Kentucky so my hopes are slim.

I play a lot of video games. Warcraft 3 with Rocky. Counterstrike once in a while. Final Fantasy XII, Madden, Timesplitters, the list goes on. In between these bouts I'll watch some sports or jeopardy or deal or no deal (I now understand why people like watching college football). And at night I'll go work out while watching House on the TV attached to the treadmill (there's really old clips of Hugh Laurie on this weird sketch comedy show called "Fry and Laurie." It's kind of funny because you don't realize it's House until about the 2nd clip or so).

At the end of the day I maybe catch up with Candy on gmail, aim, or skype. We webchat if we both have the time and energy. It's been a tough break but we'll both be back at Cornell in just a few shakes. One thing that does annoy the living shit out of me is time zones. God damnit California is far away (spatially and horologically).

St. Louis was fun. I saw pretty much everyone and it was a good time getting back in touch with people I haven't talked to in a while. Things were... different, though. I really don't think it'll ever be the same again but maybe different is good? I've moved on and so has everyone else but the future contains bigger things. For better or for worse.